Where the heck have I been?

Hey guys! The most horrible blogger ever here. I thought I would let you know why I've totally fallen behind on the 30 for 30 challenge...I've got really bad cold (thanks Daddy what a nice gift) and have been out of bed in a few. I promise to back on monday in full swing and totally caught up? I have got all my outfits planned for the next week! I think sometime you just need a week where you live in your pjamas don't you think? To tide you over till monday I've posted my outfit from monday before it all went down hill

what do you guys have planned for the weekend? thanks for sticking with me! heart you all

Country Influenced

The CMA's influenced me a little more than I thought! This outfit made me feel very country.
I have to tell you this whole taking my photo everyday is beginning to bring some issues that I am not so crazy about. Have you every had a moment where you thought you were the cats meow lookin all fly to find out you've had toilet paper hanging out of panties for God knows how long? ( I am not talking from experience at all...) We'll that is how I feel every time I load these pictures onto my computer. I look at them and think OMG is that really what I look like? I wish someone would have told me.

I remember the first time it ever really occurred to me that I didn't look like everyone else. Of course I've always know I was different but I mean really felt it. I was in 6th grade and my "helper" decided to get a group of girls together and teach them a dance for the talent show. I was soo excited! Any opportunity to perform really anything in front of audience and I was there. We were doing the dance to JLO's love don't cost a thing and I remember we were practicing in the library during lunch. I looked over at the other girls and I realized that was keep up and quite frankly I didn't look as good as them either. There they were looking like cute little cheerleaders and then there was me Spaz McGee and all I could do was cry. I told my helper that I couldn't do it, I couldn't be in the dance.

I love clothes! I love fashion and I love style. I always have. Lately it feels like no matter what I what I put on it does look like it should because its on me. This might sound silly but I feel like when people look at me all you can see is cerebral palsy. From my bendy legs to my spastic body. I feel trapped..trapped in a sick body and trapped in a disabled body.

All that being said I want this to change. I want to look in the mirror, love what I see and love who I am. Maybe its time to start working hard on making my body as strong as it can be within its limits. Yes, I'm disabled but that doesn't get me off the hook of being healthy. This the only body I am going to have. My greatest instrument so I am going to have to learn to love it.

So I wanted to say to all my stunningly beautiful readers (YES THAT MEANS YOU) If you are feeling, have ever felt or are simple just having one of those days where you don't love yourself REMEMBER there is only one you and that in itself is beautiful. You are wonderful and strong woman. Anything you dream you can achieve. If all else fails email me and I will remind you of how beautiful you really are.

I've by no means gotten to the place I want to be but I will. I heard a great quote on One Tree Hill the other day (who said TV isn't education) "Happiness is not destination its a mood" So lets get in a happy mood!

love for leggings

Hello all my lovely friends! sorry about my absence these past few days. Its been pretty hectic to say the least. I went for the colonoscopy. Everything is fine! My colon is in tip top shape. Should I be happy bout this? Yes. Am I? No. I'm devastated!! This was the end of the line. My last chance, My last hope of getting a diagnosis. Crying is not something I do very often. Especially not in public but as the doctor said Alyssa, There are no problems to be found. I bursted into tears asking him what am I going to do now. I feel so sick every minute of everyday with no explainable reason for it so far. If this is what life is going to be like I don't want it...I procceed to blubber on about how I feel like a failure for being sick and that I am losing everything...school, volunteering, my social life, the future I am supposed to have. I worked so hard for everything I have and now I feel like I am watching it slip away. I don't know what I am going to do...I have no hope left..I have an appointment with internal medicine in december but really I don't where that will take me. Not only did all this gone go on but I got sick to my stomach multiple times afterwards and by abdomin has been so sore...fun I know

So for now all I have is my little old blog and my wonderful bloggy friends...OH AND ONE MORE THING...CLOTHES!! Thank goodness! Nothing like a pair of cozy legging to brighten up the day. (Side Note: Have you seen the new sequins legging they have out there? when the 30 day challenge is over) So I decided to wear em 2 days in a row. Fashion faux pas? maybe. Do I care? No I was comfy.

On another note did anyone what the CMA's last night? OMGeeee do I love me some country. I wish I was southern so I could say things like yall without have people look at me like an alien. A little southern girl twang wouldn't be so bad either. Forgive me I am getting side tracked. My girl Carrie Underwood was hosting it up with Brad Paisley if I do say so myself..and she was looking FAB-U-LOUS as usual! I loved her outfits and her hair so I thought I'd share pics with you guys. I wouldn't mind looking a quarter like her.










I think its safe to say I have a bit of a girl crush on Mrs. Carrie. lol I was also loving Rascal flatts song why wait and sugarland's performance of their song stuck like glue

Who says you can't mix patterns

No make up, oh so bendy legs, not so coiffed haired....welcome to day 1 of the 30 for 30 remix. I KNOW your all jealous right now! (OK stop laughing) My momma's reaction to this little number I put together "Your not allowed to wear stripes and flowers. Its just not done or at least thats what I've been told" Well Momma your little lady was always one to break some rules ...why stop now! I would have taken more photos but my camera died opps! All I have to say is thank god I am not a model for a living. (for many reasons)

Now onto bigger and better things!! I have a new design thanks to the lovely Miss Jenn at Munkinland designs and I have to say I am totally loving it! I hope you love it to. We're still in the proccess of getting thing up and running but so far so good<3

hope you're all having a marvelous! I have to say I am not looking forward to tomorrow...I'm going for a colonoscopy (EKKK!) Although I will be happy to get it over with cause today hasn't exactly been a party. Let's just say the prep work for this procedure is NOT may I repeat NOT FUN! All I have to say is I was a queen on the throne all day (TMI SORRY) Hopefully I can make going for a colonoscopy look fashionable. I can't wait to actually eat something! So fingers crossed that maybe tomorrow they will actually find out why I have been so sick for a year now.

wish me luck

30 for 30 remix challenge

I am sure you have all heard about Kendi from Kendi Everyday...if you haven't checked out her fashion blog You MUST! Kendi is an extra fabulous lady who has incredible style and a wicked sense of humor. Seriously after checking out her blog all you'll want to do is go shopping with her.

Not only is she fashion savvy but she's also budget friendly and she came up with the wonderful 30 for 30 remix challenge. Here's the explanation from kendi herself
Ok so... what is the 30 for 30?

The 30 for 30 is something I came up with in April to help me learn my way through my closet by remixing my clothes. So here is the basic premise, I take 30 items from my closet (shoes included) and mix them into 30 different outfits over about a month period.

So you want to try it out? Good for you. Here is how to do it.

1. Pick out 30 items from your closet. Shoes are included in the count, coats and accessories (i.e. tights, jewelry, hats, gloves, and so on are not.) I won't use a coat yet here in Texas, but you might in say Chicago so I don't want to penalize you for Mother Nature's wily ways.

2. Remix the 30 items into 30 or more outfits.

And that's it! Ok -- not totally.

3. No shopping for 30 days.

Eek! Why in the world would I add insult to injury? Well so that you'll learn to work with what you've got and you'll learn to appreciate it. Learning to shop your own closet will in turn help you learn to shop outside of your closet. When you have to get creative with your wardrobe you discover other ways to wear a shirt or skirt, that you might not have thought of. Or you might just discover that you really like a certain type of skirt or that you gravitate towards a certain type of jacket, etc.

So I 've decide to take on the challenge!!! and I am really excited. Here are my 30 items!








5 pairs of shoes
4 pants
2 skirts
2 Jackets/blazers
12 tops (1 not pictured..in the laundry)
3 cardigans

So get ready tomorrow for day 1 and some other exciting things:)

Some More blog Challenge:Day 22-25

Day 22: Favorite City

Honestly I have no idea. I really have loved everywhere I have been so far except Jamaica (but I think I didn't like where we stayed) Although I do have to say I love going to the states because there are the best deals and such great shopping! I love burlington vermont such a cozy town and people are really nice! Can't wait to do more travelling!

Day 23: Favorite Vacation

The first thing that comes to mind is our family trip to the west edmonton mall. It is the largest mall in canada! It has a water and theme park, a hotel that has themed rooms and great shopping! I was 7 when we went and the biggest reason why I loved was cause my cousin timmy who is a couple years older than me came (he lives in edmonton) and we had so much fun playing together. Being an only child it was nice to have another young person around. We had a BALL! So fun

here's to more fun vacations

Day 24: Something you've learned.

I don't know about you but some days a feel like I've learned so much and other days I think I know nothing

1. Actions speak louder than words
2. At the end of the day all that matters is love
3. you can plan all you want but someetimes things go in a direction they never thought they would
5. things can change in a second
6. giving back is so important
7. hugs are good
8. YOU HAVE TO LOVE YOURSELF

Day 25: Ipod shuffle
1. Michael jackson - remember the time
2. Jesse Mccartney - Anybody
3.Cobra starship - good girls go bad
4. Jessica Simpson - with you
5. Rascal flatts - here comes goodbye
6. Ashlee Simpson - that's why i love you
7. Nick Lachey- On your own
8. Nsync - I want you back
9.Mario - how do i breathe
10. Carrie Underwood - songs like this

Whats on your ipod? What are some of your favorite apps?

blogger Challenge Catch up: 18-21

Omg guys where the heck have I been!! I didn't think I'd been gone that long..sooo sorry! I have not been feeling well lately. My new BFF is my bed.

Alrighty on that note time for some serious catch up in the blogger challenge! Ready? 1,2,3...GO

Day 18: Something you regret

Honestly I don't think that I regret anything that has happened my life so far. Are there things I wish would have turned out differently, Yes! but I don't know where I would be or what would really happen if things turned out different. I know how I wanted them to turn out but that is just a fantasy in my mind...a different scenario could be way worse than i could imagine. So I am going to say no I don't regret anything right now.

Day 19: Something you miss
I miss my Gege! I came across an essay question I answered for a scholarship I applied for. It was "tell us about a family member who has influenced you"
3. My grandfather who I called Gege has been a very influential person in my life. He was my grandmother’s partner for the last twenty years of her life. My biological grandfather was not in my life until I was older and so Gege became more of grandfather to me. He was an amazing man and has impacted my life in way I will not forget. He was one of the kindness men I have ever known. He taught me how to be a compassionate person and showed me how one simple act of kindness can make a big difference in another person’s life. My grandfather spent his life giving to others all the while not having much himself. I spent a lot of time with him visiting elderly people who he did housework and errands for. Although he would occasionally charge a small fee he spent a lot of time with them that he not receive compensation for. He became friends with all the people he worked with and you could always see how much they loved him. There was one women that he had been working for who was diagnosed with alzemiers. She became increasing ill and my grandfather would take care of her out of the kindess of his heart. She had a very specific diet because she had many allergies so my grandfather would make her all the foods she liked and could eat. He would visit her every weekend and a lot of the time he would bring me with him. He was very patient with her as she would repeat the same stories constantly but he was always there to keep her company. The woman would call him frantically in the middle of night because she would be fearful and forget how to get into bed or do other simple things. He never was angry about her phone calls and would always take the time to calm her. Once she went into the hospital my grandfather would visit her everyday and bring me with him on weekends. He taught me how importance of caring about others and making sure they are ok. I don’t think he ever realized the effect he had on the people he worked with. It was something he did out of the kindness heart. He was such a gentlemen. He showed respect to all people, especially his elders. As much as he instilled in me the importance of kindness, the greatest gift he gave me was love. He loved me without any expectations. I could be whoever I wanted and it didn’t matter to him because he just loved me. He always made me feel like there was nothing in the world I could do or say to make him love me any less. I went through a period where I was severely bullied at school because I walk with a walker.i had no friends and the only interaction I had was with my family. Each weekend he would spend time taking me shopping or to a restaurant. He always made sure that I felt special and he would do whatever to put a smile on my face. He didn’t have a lot but gave so much to others without realizing it. I feel so blessed to have known him. Although he is no longer with me his unconditional love and kindness will be with me forever. I will be able to go through life knowing that it’s not how much you have, its about how much you give.

Day 20: Nicknames

My dad has this funny and sometimes terrible thing where he has to make things rhyme so my nicknames from him are: Al the pal, Alyssa Pizza, Aly Oupster, Meat head (doesn't rhyme but he likes to jokingly call me this...he's lucky i like him)

Mom calls me sweet pea, Angel face, Schnuggie (I don't know where she gets it)

My poppy always called me Stinky because when I was a baby my mom undressed me to take a bath and handed me to him and I pooped on him (TMI..Sorry)

Most friends and family just call me Aly

Day 21: Picture of yourself


This picture makes me giggle. Its from my trip to Saskatoon to visit a friend. I was going through a really rough time and needed to get away from home. I was so happy to be there and so care free and relaxed. Love it!