Wednesday, September 22, 2010

10 day blogger challenge!

Kristen from All in My Twenties is participating in a 10 day blogging challenge about the following, and I thought it be fun too share with y'all. Here's the schedule of topics for any of you who want to join. If you do leave me a comment so I cant check it out:)

Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day 3: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you could change or wish you would have never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you.
Day 7: Four turn offs.Day
8: Three turn ons.
Day 9: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.

So here goes Day 1: TEN THINGS I WANT TO SAY TO 10 PEOPLE

{One} MOMMY: I wish you would take better care of yourself. I get scared because you lost Nanny at 30 and I don't want that too be me. I want you to be around for a long long time. You've been feeling sick alot lately I would really like for you to go to the doctor. I know your scared of doctors and don't like going or wasting your time there but really it would make me feel a whole lot better and hopefully you too. You take care of everyone else and forget to put yourself at the top of the list. I wish you eat more and have better healthy habits. I would love to say this too you but the mere mention of it gets you defensive and your brush me off. I don't think you even begin to realize how worried I get about you because if you did I would hope you would take better care of yourself.

I know you want the best for me and that you love me more than anything but some you good intentions really hurt my feelings. when you make remarks about what I wear, tell me I should put makeup and constantly trying to get me to wear my hair the way you like it...its hard on me. You mean it out of love and because you'd like me to get back to the old Aly before I got sick but right now I don't have a whole heck of alot of energy. I'm not myself and to be honest with you my confidence is at a low and all things your saying is what I am thinking so it only makes me feel bad. We deal with our feelings in completely different ways..I would likeif you thought about what you say when you're angry because I don't even think you know what you saying because if you did you'd never say it. My no means am I perfect either and other than this we have a wonderful relationship. I know you do it out of love because you nothing more than to protect me but remember I have you as Mom and because of that I have been taught well about life. you've given me everything i will ever need and i promise to make you proud

I love you more than words!

{Two} Daddy: You are so brave and so strong. I can even begin to understand what its like to be in chronic back pain all the time. I am so proud of you. All the guys and work love you and thats no surprise cause you a such a hoot. Hopefully things will end up the way there are supposed to be and you can stay home and rest. I try to do everything I can to make your life easier. Its really hard on me sometimes to not ask you to bring me somewhere or to do something. you don't know this but I often turn down offers to go out and stuff because I know you won't want to drive. I try to make all my doctors appointments so you don't have to bring and instead I ask Diane. I understand that your tired from work and your sore its just sometimes I feel like I am walking on eggshells making sure I am not bothering you. I am sorry I am sick and I am sorry I'm sometimes a burden. I wish learning to drive wasn't so hard for me. I AM GOING TO TRY AGAIN and do more lessons as soon as I can back on meet feet. Then I can drive you everywhere and take myself to appointments. you are my buddy and I love you so much. Thanks for watching glee with me last night

{Three} Boy Who Broke My Heart: I don't even know where to begin. There are so many things I would like to say to you but unfortunately I think they are going to go forever unsaid (to you). When I met you, it was the first time I felt visible. You melted my heart and made my heart feel something it never had before. Something inside felt that we WERE forever no matter how long it took to get there. I finally got up the guts to ask you to come here so we could see what we are. You played hot and you played cold and I never was quite sure of your feelings. then finally you said what I wanted to hear and you kissed me (my very first kiss) then you invited me to fly home with you and meet your family. Thats when you said I was your "Best Friend". I had to meet your family and be kind and act happy when all I wanted to do was cry. I came home and I cried and I couldn't figure out what happened. you completely vanished from my life and made it pretty clear that you were back and very happy with your ex. your not with her anymore and we go through these times where you right me and act all flirty and then I don't hear from you. I wish that I could turn off what I feel for you and make it not exist but its there. I can't wait for the day it goes away. All I've ever wanted is for you to be prince charming and be the wonderful guy i thought you were. I don't think thats ever going to happen. I am it for you. So I have to let you go and not wait for you,or talk to you or be excited when you right. I am not a toy you can play with when its a good time for you. So I am saying goodbye to everything I thought we could be. I wish I could understand why you do the things you do. I don't know what will happen in the future...I just hope I find what I've been looking for.

{four} J and K: I miss you both so much it hurts. I wish I was back at Dal with the two of you stressing out over exams and crazy assignments. You are the two best things that came out of going away to school. I know I could tell you anything anything and not be judged. I feel at home when we are hanging and you guys are the sisters I never had. For the first time I feel absolutely comfortable being myself.I think of you ever single day and I promise to be back as soon as you know it. Thank you for showing me what true friendship is and for being the amazing people you are. I don't know what I would do without you. remember we are soulmates..guys are just people we can have with:)

{five} Bullies from high school: I am probably not even a thought in your mind and my name probably doesn't ring a bell but I remember every single one of you. You made fun of me and made me feel like nothing more then dirt on your shoe. I am somehow started to think that you were better then me. I had to spend my lunch hours hiding in an office because I had to be afraid of what could happen. I thought my life would never get better and thought that what you would say to me was what the whole world thought of me. I was wrong!!! I changed schools and thank god I did because that is where I found real friends. I know I am not a thought in your mind but I wanted you to know that you will probably stay with me for the rest of my life. thank you for tearing me down so I could build myself back up and become and even better person. It was 5 years ago but I am still building. If it wasn't for you I would be so close to finding myself at such a young age. I hope that in your lives you remember that words CAN hurt and you think about how you treat others.

{Six) My Blog friends: Thank you to each and everyone of my blog friends!! A few Months ago I didn't even really know the blog world existed and now I don't know what I would do without it. Each and everyone of you have taught me so much. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to let me get a peak into your worlds and letting me know I am not alone. YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL!! You amaze me each and everyday. Thanks for all the support and being the people you are I love you all!!!!

{Seven} Some family members: I really hate that we don't talk and there is so much tension. All I've ever wanted is a big family. Its sad but there is just no trust. One day your there and the next your not I can't deal with that. As much as I'd like to act like not having a relationship with you doesn't hurt me it does. When I see you all doing things together and being friendly on facebook I get jealous. the way things are are for the best and I know that. I've learned that family can be whoever you want it to be and I've done a great job of making my own.

{eight} Nana, Poppy, Gege and Nanny. You are all in heaven now and I miss you so much. I would do anything to be able to see you faces just one more time. Nana: We had a not so perfect relationship when you were alive and I never thought your death would effect me that way it has. I miss you to my suprise and I wish we could have been closer. I wish I could have been who you wanted me to be. More than anything I wish that I had realized when you were alive that as many a bad times as we had we did have some good times and I should enjoyed the more. Poppy: I love you!!! I would love nothing more than to give you a hug and get you to tell me everything that ever happened in your life. I will forever be your stinky. i hope you know how much I love you. Gege- I never thought you would leave so soon. I feel jipted. I miss you every minute of everyday. I hope you are at peace. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and always making me feel like a princess. If only you could know how many people love you and how special you were. Nanny- you've been gone along time. I often wonder what would have been like to have you around growing up. I think we would be best friends and you be like betty white:P I hope you are proud of who I've become. You have never been forgotten. I love you

{nine} Auntie M and Uncle A, & D: Auntie M and Uncle A ...I love you both more than you will ever know you are like grandparents to me. I dread the day you aren't here. I'd like to keep you here with me forever. you both have should me that age is just a number. i hope to find a marriage like yours with all the love in the world:)
D- thank you for being the best godmother ever. you relaxed personality is exactly what I need in my life. you are wonderful person and i dont know what I'd do without you. you are one of kind! you are such a great friend and confidant. I love you.

{ten} Myself: hi lovely. you are so hard on yourself all the time. As much as you'd like to think you are you ARE NOT SUPERGIRL. You are not a failure for getting sick and coming back. It is not you fault. I know you think it is you but you're wrong. you are so afraid of making mistakes that you are missing on the life god put in front of you. Remember you can't fail or succeed if you don't try. Open your heart to life and stop being and more importantly open your heart to yourself. love yourself and treat yourself the way you treat everyone else. this is going to be long journey and you might as well make it the best it can be and learn to love yourself. Love your body now because in years from now you'll wish you had it. Love your face cause its the only one your going to get unless you are Heidi Montag. You disability is not a negative quality. Its just think that makes you have to look at life and how to figure out a different way of doing things. Stop being so afraid of ending up alone because the longer you think that way the long you will be. you have to love before anyone else will. It's time to step up to the plate girl!!

I love you! (even though you are a pain in the ass)





3 comments:

  1. Wow that's amazing. Great post! I think I may be participating in this too. seems like a lot of fun!

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  2. Hi Aly! Thanks for the follow! I just read a ton of your posts and I think you have a beautiful heart, a fabulous attitude and I love that you blog! Blogging, for me anyways, is soooo stress relieving and therapeutic and I love that I get to know girls from all over the world through a simple "online journal". Glad to "meet" ya & glad you're doing the blogging challenge!

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